June 26, 2009




One of my favorite scenes in Forrest Gump is when Forrest ran. By the end of his three years, two months, fourteen days and sixteen hours of running, he had a considerable following. His disciples weren’t very happy when he decided to stop, ‘cuz they thought he knew where he was going.
For all the irony of the movie, people really are like that. People will follow someone who is in motion.
And notice that Forrest wasn’t studying running. He wasn’t contemplating running. He wasn’t talking about running. He was just running.
“I ran for three years, two months, fourteen days and sixteen hours. When I was hungry, I ate.
When I was tired, I slept. When I had to go, you know, I went!”
-Forrest Gump

June 25, 2009

18.1.2009.give up or insist




18.1.200917, night i reach the heritagehotel at around 10pm. after that check in , me and ru and lim go down to took the supper after that back to my room and i receive the richard sms to ask me how i am , i told him i at kl now , he said why dint inform him early , why suddenly come to kl . i told him i come for marathon ,. he want to come n meet me have a drink , cos he said long time dint meet me since from last year . i told him tonight i have to sleep early , no time to meet him , n tomorrow sunday after i finish my marathon i also no time to meet him , cos i will go to seremban then he said ok loh . meet me next time . after that he sms me to wish me do my best in my marathon . he is the only one kl friends to wish me and encourage me , ( thank richard ) (hope u mum will recover soon .wish u all the best my brother ).then we watching the tv program till 11 pm , then we turn off the tv n go to sleep . but i totally cant sleep whole night , i duno why , maybe waiting someone to reply my sms and give me some wish and encourage and motivation . my eye keep open till 5 am morning , i told doctor and rutan , i totally dint sleep for whole night , can i give up to run ,cos my mind now totally blank . for doctor advise is (yes), cos is danger .hahah , duno is true or not , cos he can less one counterworker. but i still not give up , cos i still hope someone will coming to give me a support , cos some of my friends got told me before she will come and give me a support one day , but when i arrive there , i try to looking arround , but dint see my friends coming, this time , i still run alone without any supporter .i run almost ten year , my family never come and support my any competition , some time i told them i won the games but is nothing for them .cant see them show the proud and happy on their face . so now i run just for fun and enjoy .GE30K started at Lake Garden, is totally an up and down route till the finish line. I run most of it, even though with small pace while ascending, take wider but effort-less stride while descending, like driving a fuel saving car. Trying hard to concentrate on my breathing and step, to make sure not losing focus. This is really a physical and mind game as you can seeHilly route of KL, from garden, to Bukit Tunku, to Hartamas then run back on the same route. Hartamas, is it the high class residency area of KL? The condo looks nice, not much traffic there, people (mostly maids) bring dog out “jalan jalan” while their master still in sweet dream (I guess). Only runners are crazy enough to sacrifice their Sunday morning time running like going to die……Don’t ask me why I run…… why not spend your time comfortably on bed? People say I spend the money to get the suffering…hmm….why hah? Due to limitation of my words power, I just can smile J. becaurse i like to challangeI manage to finish the 30k in about 2 hr 45 min, still waiting for the official timing. So glad I can make it under 3hours, but this is the worse timing i never get it before , cos i set my timing is 2.30 min . but too bad . when the competition in process , i have a good stamina , but after 15km my body dont know why start to turn cool , can feel my energy is burning very fast, my mind have some idea is when i saw the ambulance , i consider to sit the ambulance to back the finish line ,but this is a very bad idea for the runner , i want to give up , cos still got 15 km to go ,but my body like not allow me to continue , maybe is the last night i dint sleep , but i told my self ,i cant give up , and i look at the sky , i feel my dad was looking me , like call me dont give up . now , i take out my power gel to eat then tryied to continue my run , just try to slow down my speed , and when i feel suffer i stop it and keep walking . when i reach to 26 km , lim was touch my back , i so surprises is was him , in this time he was over taking me , then i try to speed and over taking him back , he still catch at my back very near , i am so stress when he trying to catch me . after that he over taking me again , no matter how hard i try to over taking him , he still run more n more far away , so i give up , he join every marathon competiton he never won me before , in this time , he won it . but i not feel sad lah , cos i really have a bad stamina in this time , and i proud of myself because i complete the games and i dont give up . but lim i want to tell you , i will win it back in next race , but i dont know when ,but lim , please take my word i am the person not easy to give up .you wait the day coming , i sure i will get it back. hhehhehe After the run , i no have a much time to rest ,i went to collect my medal and direct walk 30 min back to my hotel , because at 10 am my friends mum will come to my hotel to fetch me , just finish taking my bathe , i receive the phone call aready.then i back to her house to take a rest . at 3.30 we starting go to seremban .i still feel tired and sleepy ,when i feel sleepy n tired i really dont talk so much .when reach there , 5 pm , i still feel tired so i take a car key from aunty n sleep inside the car , cos i worry at night i feel tired and cant take any nice photo .8 pm , the latin dance performance is starting , i feel great have a energy, cos can see my favourite latin dance performance and can let me shooting nice photo . after the latin dance performance , i was feel very happy becaurse i can help her take the photo , i hope i can attend her every latin performance and competition .but i duno i cant make it everytime or not , but i will try my best , i very cherish everytime to saw her dance becaurse i duno when is the last .the performance is finish on arround 11 pm , i was feel very tired on that night , so i dint talk so much when i back to kl ,, the next of the day morning, i take the early bus to back muar .
running the GE30K at Lake Garden.Still feeling the body ache and tiredness, but feeling lighter for body weight as well as my mind, like getting rid tones of waste accumulating in my body. What a release!RUNNING GIVE ME THE POWER TO RISE ABOVE ANY CHALLENGEI WILL KEEP RUNNING FOR THE BETTER WORLD . WAIT ME ! I WILL RECOVER SOON . TIEREN WILL STAND UP AGAIN我跑出了意志。我跑出了坚持,它比成绩重要,人生是一场长远的竞赛,一场意志力与梦想坚持的竞赛,你可以选择退出或者选择面对, 退出VS 面对, 我选择了面对, 你呢?
i run for my self , not for you , not for other people . i run to insist , i run from my mind , tha is more important than what a result i get , life is a long journey competition, a willpower and a dream competiton . insist or give up , i choose insist , what about you ? .

June 2, 2009

朋友只是生命中的过客


我很抗拒,甚至可以说我很讨厌“过客”这两个字。在我的友情世界里,友情是一生一世,不需要爱情模式里的虚伪承诺,但是却能够让两人心甘情愿付出,为对方赴汤蹈火,守护对方,我一直都这么认为,这才是真正的友情,朋友绝对不会是过客。人逐渐长大了,经过岁月的洗礼,才慢慢发觉有一些友情其实很累人,最近经历了一些事情,不懂发什么神经,我开窍了,我想通了吗?我已经学懂了不再执着,不执着对方是否依然会为这段友情付出,不执着对方是否会为我嘘寒问暖,到底是我心灰,还是心淡了?不懂。不会再怪对方没有尽力维持我俩的友谊,也不会责备对方不考虑我的感受,其实错就错在自己一直都太执着,以往的好朋友竟然演变成如今的一厢情愿刻意讨好,啊,这真的很让人疲累,就算我再怎么努力也好,只要对方不领情,把我的心意当透明,我还能怎样?既然我们已经走不回去了,既然对方认为我已经不再值得了,那就算了吧,我也不想去追问为何轻易放弃。不重要,这一切都不重要了。...过客,就让他做个过客吧。